Gtg. Sleep tight and thanks qiuyi! I'll try not to emo!
PERNICIOUS
2009/12/01 23:06
New month, new blogskinned.
Sometimes, i just hope that everything would go back to the way they were. I HATE it now. Why? What the hell happened to you? Why did you became like this? So disobedient, so weird. You weren't like this in the past, were you? Where did the happy, lovely you went? You are just simply stuck with this damn laptop. Why do you get up as early as five to play your stupid game? Are you afraid of something? I know you ain't addicted to the game. You are afraid that you won't get to use this darn laptop if we use it before you do. The fact is, we won't do this sort of stuff to you. You WILL get to use the laptop. It will not run away. However, in your world, you think it will. That's why you wake up so early to "terrorize" the laptop. Yes. You may have gotten everything you want, maybe just for now, but have you even remember that mum and dad and our grandpa who dotes on you the most are all heartbroken? They see you sitting in front of the laptop and not saying a single word. They see you playing the laptop for at least fifteen hours a day. Mum said she was disappointed. Dad said he was very sad. Grandpa didn't say anything, even though i know how he felt. Grandpa told us to talk to him more often, maybe to take his mind off the laptop for a while i guess. And to let him interact with us more often. Somehow, i just feel sad and depressed. We may not be very close together, but we grew up together and he's my own brother. I saw him changed. He changed drastically. So much that i couldn't recognize him. I even felt so strange when with him. He's like a stranger. I just feel like crying. My brother. And yet i can't do anything. I saw him fall to his knees. We haven't talk for at least a month already. Maybe i should disappear from this world. Maybe i was the cause of everything, without myself realizing. Maybe i could have done something, but i missed the chance. How stupid i must have been. No. I am stupid aren't i? And i plan to tell limying that i want to quit the blogshop. I am just very tired. There's no strength in me. I can't carry on. I'm sorry. Managing a blogshop is very tiring to me. It's not the right time and age to start a blogshop.